Happy Mother’s Day to my mom, my emma, my confidant and the greatest friend I have ever had.
I miss you now, as I miss you always.
Today I think of you:
You are the one that left me for hours in T.J.Maxx and Marshalls and though I use to beg to leave, you always said, “5 more minutes.” But then I saw you heading towards the pillows and knew 5 minutes would never be.
You are the one that gave me my long skinny nose, and bottom-crooked teeth, they match yours perfectly and I love them because they are ours.
You are the one that use to make me wear Laura Ashley and though I cried at the patterns that made me dizzy, you told me I looked so pretty.
You are the one that gave me all your Tammy dolls even though you knew I was too small to appreciate them, and all the care you put into them, all the outfits you made for them, but you knew how much I would love them.
You are the one that let me stay home sick even when I wasn’t. You would bring the TV into my room, and make me my favorite, jam and toast and cinnamon applesauce. I always wanted to be around you.
You are the reason I cried the whole week I was at camp. You just had to include my favorite snack and a card in my bag, which made me miss you instantly, and regret ever leaving you, if only for a week.
You always took me to get a haircut when I was feeling bad about myself and complained, when I still put my new hair behind my ears and ruined the cute look.
You are the one that makes me laugh so hard that I forget to breathe and start to cry. Remember all those times: the little dog, the gummy bears, the goodnight kiss, the bridge you didn’t see as an obstacle and Dad’s Christmas message (just to name a few.)
You are the one that I call several times a day, even when I was on my honeymoon in Ireland (which I am pretty sure was not okay).
You are the one that put your dreams on hold so my brother and I could live, could dream, could be.
You are the one that sends me cards just because and loves my stinky bulldog.
You are the reason I want children so soon (though I am not ready) because all I can think of is how much I want them to know you.
Your mother was the greatest gift a grandchild could ever want, and every ounce of you reminds me of her, and how proud she would be of you. Pink flowers and birds.
You make me feel like I am a good wife, a fantastic baker, and brilliant creator and even though I know I am not to the degree you see, I love that you see me this way.
Someday we will take that trip to Prince Edward Island.
But today just know that I love you and am so thankful for you today, and always.
I included the photograph of our special time together before I said, “I Do indeed.” I think of this time often.